1. Most Rabbaiem and poskim today say that Jews who grew up in a secular environment have a status of a tinok shenishba. That they are not liable for their averot since they were never given a proper Jewish education. Yet, your background makes it seem like you were also a tinok shenishba, yet your story indicates that you were severely judged in shamayiem as someone who \"knew better.\" Do you know why this was the case? 2. The period of darkness upstairs that you described sounds like the punishment of kaf hakela \"slingshot\". Do you think that this is what it was from your experience. 3. Have you seen the other NDEs such as \"the seal of truth\" www.sodot.tv/Site/ProDetile.asp?id=997&CategoryID=1&SubID=431&PageView=3#player and Moshe Levy\'s \"The End\" dreamingofmoshiach.blogspot.com/2009/02/end.html Did you experience some of the things they did? 4. Do you think/know if the righteous (Merits greater than sins) go through a similar suffering (i.e. the black place) before they get to the beit din l\'malla, or do their merits protect them from that?